Still don't know when the surgery will be. I really had it with waiting. I wanted to bail out again. I know surgery can relieved the problems and has some esthetic advantages, but it's not 100% safe, there is risk of nerve damage, relapse, and even psychological side effect. I kept on thinking about the result of such surgery. I was told to have both lower and upper jaws surgery, meaning it can really alter my face.
How would people react?
And the most important question is: How would I handle it? I convinced myself that I'm happy with my face, happy enough with perfect align teeth, and the problem with locking, popping and cracking can be eased by physiotherapy.

At this point, I DO NOT WANT to have any surgery!!! I don't want to get thru the pain, swelling, discomfort and don't forget… the possibility of WIRED SHUT for weeks.

Talked to some of my friends about it... they are all very nice and supportive... each of them convinced me to stick to the plan, and I will be alright. It will be OK, EVENTUALLY. *Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*